"我累了。我真的累了。。"

Okays .. so many things happened in juz 2days .

Way too many till the extend that i can no longer handle it .

I need a break . Idk how to though .

Seriously , whats wrong manz . Confused much .

So wat if im educationally capable ? 

Stephanie aint as strong as u guys see her as . 

Im mean , evil . Yes . But im easily defeated . 

A simple word will kill mii . Badly . 

Hahaha . I muz be mad huhh ? Get killed by a word -.- 

On the other hand , a simple word will brighten up my day . 

Even more mad huhh ! Hahaha . Oh well . Thats mii ~ wat to do .

To you :: I know that u care alot for mii . I know that we have telepathy . Like cool huhh . But yeahh , we indeed do . Its juz that thing in us that tells us that "hey . Shes not herself today ." Hahhaa . Oh well . I have my reasons for not telling u . What for make u worry right ? Well , i have said enough . All i want you to know is that , i do care for u . Its juz a matter if i say it out or not . I believe you know mii well enough . You know that i wont let out my negative emotions out . You know that . But still , since the deal is on , things will change . Or more like , i will change . So muz u :) Watever the case is , im fine now . So u muz be too . Love ya girl :D

Next on line ~ you .

I have alot to say . Yet idk how and whr to start with .

Forgiving doesnt mean forgetting . Thats something i have and must stress .

Actually , sometimes i seriously have the urge to tell u staright off ur face that i hate you ~

I hate you for making mii fall for u . 

I hate you for not being the guy that i dream for . 

I hate you for lifting mii up so high and u let go suddenly . 

I hate you seriously . Yet on the other hand , i cant even bring myself to hate you . 

Cos ure juz so great at times . 

You bring abt laughter to my life . Although without u , i believe my bffs will do a great job too . 

That smile u created on mii from juz a simple text . 

Oh well , i should juz say , i love you . 

But again , seeing this three words bring abt fear to mii . 

I fear that i love you more than u love mii . 

I fear that i will lose you one day . 

I fear that everything i have now is juz a dream . 

My fear increases as i fall deeper in . 

And the entire vicious cycle repeats itself . Love to fear to hate back to love and so on

Seriously manz . I told myself that guys arent worth it . 

Well .. since young , i have that mindset . Hence , cant blame mii .

Too many real life examples ehh . Enough . 

I expected alot from u . I expected the truth from u . I expected a decent explaination from u . 

But apparently , i receive none .You dont even bother explaining . 

Or should i say , theres nth u can explain .

And all i got from you was a "sorry" ? 

Hey . Get ur facts right . Sorry wasnt wat i wan . 

Wat i wan to hear from u aint juz a 5letters word , sorry . 

I wont deny that ur actions indeed disappoint mii ttm . 

But , so wat if im disappointed ? 

I saw it with my own eyes . They are facts . FACTS . 

Watever . Being said so much , nth will change either . 

Sorry ? Okays . I accepted it dn . Wat else can i say ? 

End here ..

Byes peeps ~ 

Love is not blind . It sees more and not less , but because it sees more , it is willing to see less . 

Love does not begin the way we seem to think it does . Love is a battle , a war . Love is growing up .